Anon is feeling…odd. So odd in fact that we just gave her half a Valium to try calm her and help her feel closer to what counts as ‘normal’ for her.
Firstly: the NHS still hasn’t tried to ring us back concerning getting Anon further help. They tried to call us just once, on Tuesday, and we can’t call them back – when you try the number an automatic message says this number can’t be called, but don’t worry because “we will call you back very soon”. Four days and counting!
Secondly these past few days we have noticed Anon’s mood is changing – we’re not sure if she’s going manic. If she is going manic, this will be the first time she has been manic in a long, long time!
Before Anon started experiencing psychosis every day she was only psychotic during manic episodes. It’s only over the past 18 months that Anon has begun experiencing psychotic symptoms outside of mania, and we didn’t really realise until this summer how bad it had gotten. Now she suffers psychosis many, many times a day. Why? That isn’t Bipolar!
We’re concerned that, if she is going manic, will her psychosis get even worse because that’s when she used to experience it?
Also, what should we be doing?
The last two GPs we dealt with at our local surgery were absolutely horrendous, and Anon’s good GP isn’t available for another three weeks. Where else do we turn?
If Anon is going manic, does this mean she still has Bipolar? If she does, why does she experience psychotic symptoms every day outside any clear mood episode?
Anon just had a Valium to see if it would help calm her down, but the number of Valiums the GP gave us won’t last long at all – we were already supposed to have used them all! What can we use after that to help ease her symptoms?!
Anon wants to go back on Abilify, as we still have some lying about and she is sick to death of her mental health. I’m not against the idea and even Anon’s dad told her she should try a small dose of Abilify because the NHS aren’t trying to help her at all.
I just don’t want her to have to deal with the akathisia. Not only did it suck but Anon hated that.