I am tired of all the days being the same old shit.
I want to give up.
Every day is exhausting, every day is miserable, every day is a struggle.
My life is shit, and I’m ruining my partner’s life too.
Today I had several moments of enjoying myself…I had a great walk with our youngest dog, I actually enjoyed it start to finish. But it’s never enough. An hours’ happiness amongst a full day of misery isn’t enough.
I’ll keep going. There’s nothing else to do but keep going, even though I’m dragging my partner down too…why am I living for him when all I do is make him miserable?
Every day is the same.
Oh hey look, it’s officially World Bipolar Day. Yay…