For all the world it feels like Anon has to be having a mixed episode…either that or she really, really doesn’t have Bipolar disorder anymore.
She’s switching so quickly, especially a few days ago; for hours she would be hypomanic. She was energetic, active, she would sing, laugh, train the dogs, work on them with all sorts…and then she would be low. Maybe not truly, seriously depressed; but certainly angry and with some sadness, triggered by all sorts.
The lower spurts don’t last too long, rarely more than an hour, and as I said it’s usually anger over actual despair…we’re so confused by her moods at the moment.
Her psychosis is back with a bang.
Looking back at her mood chart we had over a week where she rated her psychosis 2/10 or less – several days were even a 0! That hasn’t happened in close to a year now 🙂
Then the stupid guy tried to talk to her on the phone, and since then her psychosis has been really bad…her paranoia seems worse out of everything, and brings with it a lot of racing thoughts and, of course, intense anxiety.
That’s another thing, are her racing thoughts caused by the paranoia or mania? Or is the paranoia caused by mania, or is the mania caused by the paranoia? It’s all very confusing…
Basically, we’ve been struggling.
We took everything right back to basics – if Anon had any doubts about leaving the house, she had to stay home. No walking the dogs, no trips to the supermarket, no appts, no socialising, nothing.
The result? The last few days her mood has been noticeably more manic than low-manic-low-manic-low.
Her daily physical pain (which is a huge issue when her mood isn’t good, and something NO professionals take seriously) has gone from being between 8 and 9 out of 10, to firstly a 1 and then 0’s 🙂
Today she surprised me by turning up on a dog walk (bit of a shock and slightly concerning, but it was nice!) and she’s also done some training with our dogs we’ve wanted to do for months but never got round to.
Hopefully we can keep this manic episode fairly manic, fairly predictable, in the hypo stage rather than full blown mania…
And we’ll the stress as low as possible.