I think it’s around two weeks I’ve been on Citalopram now.
Most the side effects have gone, or at least the nausea has. I still get full after just a few bites of food, I hardly ever feel hungry, and thinking about food (to plan meals) makes me feel ill.
I haven’t had an episode of panic since I started, I think the past four or five days I’ve had virtually no anxiety, and my energy levels have been good…maybe bordering on hypomanic a few times, but nothing major at all.
Psychosis is still the same, which at least means it hasn’t gotten any worse.
Today though I feel like absolute shit. I didn’t take my Citalopram last night because my chest felt tight and I had a big argument with Gog because he won’t let me cook for myself but none of the meals he prepares are in any way healthy, so I said if he wasn’t gonna let me eat healthy I wasn’t gonna take my med, in case it was doing anything to my heart.
Yesterday I was a little irritable or short tempered, but today I feel pretty damn low, and am really pissed off at the world and frustrated with everything. I just want to sit and scream and cry, and tear my hair out.
I doubt all this was caused by missing one dose.
Fucking furious. Especially because I had been coping so well with so many things, and then the one day I lose it is the day we have a friend coming over…