Wow these last few weeks have been tough.
Here are a few things that have happened:
- I told my parents I no longer wanted any contact or relationship with them – this is after years of despicable treatment and misery, so it’s a great thing, but it was stressful!
- I’ve started having seizures more often, and have been having 1-15 seizures a day…this sucks and means I’m tired and miserable
- My mood has been very very low, and the past few days I was battling some intense suicidal thoughts
I’ve lost a lot of days recently to a foggy, confused and sluggish brain. Seizure fun. Some days it will be about 10pm before I feel like myself and my head clears. The other day for example I couldn’t remember anything we had done all day, at all. I even forgot an entire dog walk we did.
Yesterday I had ZERO SEIZURES which was nice, although it was a tough day emotionally.
The suicidal drive is falling, today I’m doing better than I have in a long time.
Swings and roundabouts…or seizures and depression 😛