About a week ago we noticed the very beginning of hypomania.
Since then it’s rocketed upwards. It’s felt VERY odd feeling this way, I don’t remember when my last manic episode was, and especially not where I got this manic!
All of yesterday was awful, but by the evening I was entirely broken.
For six nights I hadn’t gotten more than 6 hours sleep, with the smallest amount being less than 4 hours. I was jittery, couldn’t focus on anything, was irritable, and constantly moving – rocking, flailing my legs, punching myself. I felt like I was crawling out my skin.
My bf gave me half a valium in the evening. That usually knocks me right out; my mania was so intense I was left very much awake, but much more lucid and able to concentrate. I took another half before bed, and slept 5 blissful hours last night!
I’ve had half a valium early today, and will take another this evening. Must keep the mania at bay!!!
Anywho, here are the many faces of mania – insomnia, intense energy and frustration, bouncing off the walls.